Loki Memoirs 41

Forgiveness, It has been a few days now since Thor had come looking for me.  Mother has been very kind to bring my meals to my room and I feel much better than I did when I was placed in the dungeons.  Even for some time I could sense she wanted to speak with me, after all that has happened I'm sure she would like to at least talk about it. One day she had come with my lunch meal and set it on my nightstand.  I grabbed hold of her left wrist and she looked me in the eyes.  "Mother, I believe you would like to speak with me," I told her plainly.  She blinked and sat at the edge of my bed. "I do.  How did you and Thor...become so close?" it was a simple question but maybe she asked it out of curiosity of her own mothering to us.  She may have very well been blaming herself for all of this. "Thor and I have always been close mother, it was not until late that we realized our feelings for each other were more," I answered her.  "Do not blame yourself for this...I know you have been thinking it," I added. "I...thought it was something I had done wrong.  I felt maybe I did not set proper boundaries of love with your sibling," she explained. "No, this is a choice that Thor and I decided together.  Mother do you not see?  We are so much happier this way..." I frowned realizing that Thor and I were in a rough spot right now.  We were not happy right now. "It does not seem so..." she practically read my mind.  "He seems troubled and only seeing you this way, you seem to be as well.  Thor has come to talk to me Loki.  He is terribly upset that you refuse him," she continued. "We have had a fight, I feel my trust in him has been breached," I looked to her.  She hummed and nodded.   "Perhaps, he has good reason?  You said he loves you, but what if his love was so great for you it has forced him to lie to you...to protect you," she placed a hand on mine. "You sound like him.  Are you sure he did not tell you to say that to me?" I fidgeted with the edge of my bedding. "I say this from my heart Loki, he has not told me to tell you anything.  He simply wants you beside himself again.  As a concerned mother, I cannot help but wish you would see it from his eyes," she stood and was making her way toward my door.  I could tell I had upset her now. "Mother...I will speak with him," she stopped and looked back at me.  She nodded and made her leave.  It was later that day that I had been resting and a knock came to my door.  Firm, it was Thor. "Enter," I sat up now, this may get heated.  Thor was one to always try to win our disputes and I know he always wanted the last word.  He approached slowly and came to my bed side, kneeling beside me. "Mother has told me you would like to speak with me," he looked up into my eyes hoping to read into my emotions.  I gave nothing for him to read.   "Yes.  Tell no lies, I wish to hear why you lied to me," he nodded, understanding I was already upset. "After you had hit me in the head, mother had called to me to talk to her," he started.  "I had sat and explained to her my feelings for you, at first she felt terrible for allowing it to get this far but I told her it was our decision.  Nothing she had done, she seemed to feel better about it then."  He had waited for me to acknowledge his words, I nodded. "She had asked me if I loved you," I told him.  He looked at me with wide eyes.  "I told her, I did," Thor smiled slightly.  "She also managed to figure out we have been troubled as a couple ever since we separated.  I told her my concerns and she got upset when I had accused her of speaking your words to me.  That is when I decided I wanted to talk to you about this," I finished my ramblings.  "Continue..." "After I had told her everything she understood that I cared for you as much as a lover could, I had left at once to find you.  I knew even if I could find you, you would not come home unless it was important enough to be considered treason.  At that point I formulated the lie that father ordered for you to return to the palace, but I did not know it would end so terribly.  Loki, I love you and I would never intentionally hurt you the way it did.  I just wanted to protect you until I was able to talk to father about us," he gripped my hand now.  "Please, I beg for your forgiveness," he bowed his head down onto my hand and kissed it.  The gesture making me soften a bit. "I will forgive you, if you promise that you will not lie to me again.  You must also promise to never hurt me again as you did, I was humiliated...in front of everyone."  He looked up into my eyes, "I promise," he came close to me and nuzzled my nose.  It led to a brushed kiss.  Which led to a full kiss, which led to another...and another... Loki